Update: Asking for help, and ACCEPTING that help.

I'm not big on asking or help or allowing anyone to help me. This is a new experience. One thing that has been suggested to me is to go to Duluth and live in a group home for 1-3 months. I'd be living with young women who also suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder. I would go after i leave Rochester. I plan on staying with Amber and Jason for a while after i leave. The problem here is that BPD is not something they usually treat. They use Cognative therapy instead of Dialectal therapy. I can't have CBT, i can only have DBT. So, it's frustrating. I have a lot of work to do. Because i've been handeling my emotions the wrong way my entire life. Basically, the way my nurse Achillies explained it to me was with a a Swailli proverb. "It's better to walk forward than to run in the wrong direction". I've been running backward for 18 years. I've gotta walk back. I need help. First off, i need books about Dialectual Therapy, Borderline Personality and what not. While i'm HERE at the hospital i need makeup with NO GLASS. I need foundation in a plastic tube. I need a eyeshadow compact with no mirror. I need perfume in a plastic bottle. I need pens and more notebooks. In cute colors. There's lots of hello kitty stuff at target! I need size 9-10 slippers that have cushiony bottoms that will not flatten over time. I need more pants. I have a few at home... and more shirts...and more bras... I need conditioner. I use very expensive conditioner (it's 15 bucks a bottle...) but Treseme or Aussie will work. I don't need shampoo, because i only use Shampoo once a week. Body wash! I'm showering every day now. Hair pretties. (clips, head bands...etc) more heatable rice bags. I can't have anything with a cord here. Rice bags help. I need 2 more (one for each hip, and one for my back and hip) i only have one. Facial Wash/ lotion. My skin is very dry and i would like something that can moisturize my skin but clean it at the same time. Foulders and a large three ring binder I write a lot... It's going to be a long time until i'm home for good. It'll be about 4 months until i am home in my own bed. The group home will be nothing like it is here. I can leave whenever i want, i can get a job... anything i want. I think it's best for me.