I know a lot of people who are self diagnosed Bipolar. This drives me nuts. It's like they want to be Bipolar or something. Yeah, like it's such a great thing.
Usually when people think of Bipolar they think of people getting mad over nothing and flipping out. It's not like that. At all.
There's 3 different types of Bipolar disorder.
there's type one. Type one it the most serious and debilitating. this is when you have crippling depressions where you are almost catatonic. Then, all of the sudden, you're hyper. You can't stop moving. Your brain doesn't stop! You talk so fast... you do things you never would have done before. You stay up for days on end. You can't sleep because you don't need to. You don't want to. It's euphoria.
Type 2 is called 'hypomania' where you have tiny ups, and tiny downs. It changes often throughout the day, but it's a small change. They usually don't freak out or get angry about nothing. They just aren't stable. It's pretty predictable though. There's a rhythm in it.
Then there is Cyclothymia. Which is literally so unknown that the word isn't even in my computer's dictionary. It's like Type 2 but, less severe. It is completely unpredictable, much like type 1 but not very severe. Most people don't even know they have it because it's so mild.
I have type 1.
People always tell me that they are bipolar because they always get mad, or really sad, or really happy at the drop of a hat. Most of these people are teenagers. There was also one woman who told me this, but she has the maturity of a 13 year old. People, that isn't Bipolar disorder. It's called HORMONES. Simple as that.
I find it so annoying when people say they are bipolar but have never been told by a medical professional or are seeking treatment.
If you are bipolar and not taking medicine it's going to get worse. It never goes away. If you're bipolar on medication, but not seeking therapy, you're probably not going to recover. You need both to get better. It's been proven countless times. It's the same with all mental illnesses and disorders. Pills don't just make it go away. They probably wont work without therapy.
One thing that pisses me off is when people say that therapy and seeking help never works. It didn't work because you didn't allow it to work. Part of recovering is trying to get better. If it didn't work, you didn't try.
Another thing that has really been on my nerves is that this one woman was making fun of me for being bipolar, having nightmares and being in a mental institution. She herself was institutionalized, she also claims to be bipolar. She laughed at me about it, and made fun of me. She told me i needed to be in a mental institution the rest of my life. You never, ever say that to someone who is TRYING to get better. If you do, you're a pathetic excuse for a human being. It just upsets me to know that there are people out there that will sink so low to say shit like that. You don't make fun of someone for havind diabetes. You don't make fun of someone for having cancer. Depression and Mental illness is a chronic ilness that you will never grow up and snap out of. It's the same thing. Mental ilness just affects your brain, instead of your internal organs.
I really wish i could just get over it, but i can't. It's really bothering me.
I'm having a really bad night. A really, really, really bad night. I wish i could just get over it and move on. But i can't. I'm having a really hard time with this. sometimes i wish i never went and got help because then i wouldn't have to worry about all the bullshit i'm going to have to endure while trying to recover. Was it even worth it?
I'm losing hope.
No comments:
Post a Comment