Greg and I are getting a pet buffalo.

One of the women here is leaving to run the Boston Marathon on friday. She is a very strong person. I really like her.

Well, today kinda was good and bad.

I woke up in a zombie like state. Awful headache from caffine withdrawls. So i went back and took a nap. It was an hour long nap, which is a huge improvement from mh usual 5 hour nap.

I didnt do my DBT today. I just didnt feel up to it. They told me that was ok. Instead i relaxed with the residents and watched River Monsters and documentaries all day. It was very nice.

Amber came by twice. Once to bring me markers, makeup and a poster board. The other time was to show me a page she made of her and Ethan with pictures i took. I take awesome pictures. She also picked up a book for me, which I started reading and highlighting

Today we went outside, I manages to get a sunburn that is fading to a tan. Ugh.

I will be 19 in less than a month. I will be 20 in a year. I'm still so young. I have felt dead inside for so long, I just wanna live!!! I never thought this is where I would be at 18. I thought I'd be schooling at UMD, living in Duluth and working at the zoo. I would be the best zoo keeper ever.

Greg and I are getting a pet buffalo. His name will be Trevor, and I will hide him under my bed.

I wonder what it is like killing a wild animal with nothing but your bare hands and a spear, knowing your survival, and the survival of your village depends on it.

But we won't kill Trevor. No way. We will love him and feed him lettuce. I will make him clothes. Maybe when he goes through his teen years i will let him dye his hair and pierce his buffalo tongue.


Also, I don't think I swore one time. Yay me!!