Susan Kara

Somedays i have good days, other days are just filled with darkness and anger. Yesterday, was both.

It started out at about 5:45. I had gone to bed early the night before because i was mad at mom for telling me my Expectations at home. I've been so overwhelmed lately by all the things i've taken on. So getting that message just pushed me over the edge, so i went to bed.

When i woke up, there were new messages. Mom and amber started suggesting that i go home this monday. I get mad. Very angry. They're pushing me out!! They said i could stay as long as i need, why would they push me out.

So i was pretty mad. I was fuming. Then i got another message saying something about how if i don't go home monday, then i'll just be going home 4 days later. What am i going to accomplish in 4 days? Probably not anything too ground breaking. So, i calmed down. I'm going home Monday.

So after that i was tired. I took a nap for about an hour, then started The Return Of the King over again so i could enjoy it. Oh, man i cried. After that i started Guitar Hero. I told Jason i'd pass it before i went home. I'm almost done, but DANG it's getting hard. I don't know if i can do it. Today i am going to try again. And dang it, i'm gonna try hard.

Then, Amber and Jason returned. I thought we were gonna have a nice quiet night at home. I was pretty wrong. Jason and i went grocery shopping, amber went to a Scrapbook store. Jason and i saved $30 bucks on groceries. I bought a butterfinger. I never eat candy bars. I thought i'd treat myself. The only time i have them is halloween when they have those bite sized ones or in my ice cream.

Then amber and i met up and we went to Sally Beauty. We got a bunch of shit. Amber wants me to teach her how to do her makeup and hair. I'm SOOOOO ready! I can't wait. I think that's what we're doing tonight. I got 3 bottles of nail polish, 4 eye shadows, 1 compact and this hair removal thing for.....30 bucks!! All professional stuff. Very happy. I got lots of purple because well, i look hot in purple.

Then we got home, i talked to julie on the phone and enjoyed my butterfinger. Then i heard amber all upset about something. I didn't know what to do, so i just turned on some music. Jason was there with her, if she wanted me then she would have gotten me. I felt a little guilty that i did nothing, so then i decided i was gonna draw her a little picture and put it on the mirror.

It said "SMILE! Today is going to be a good day!" with an owl on it and the owl said "Put on some red lipstick. you look C-hoot in it" I think she liked it. While i made it i watched Star Wars in High Def...you have no idea how freaking scared i was. all the creatures where HUGE. It was so detailed...i was terrified. I had to turn it off.

Then i couldn't fall asleep till about 3:30. That was annoying.

Today, i am gonna get all dolled up, and then play some guitar hero.