Yup, today is my birthday. I'm 19 now.
Today is also Jedi day. "May the 4th be with you".
AAAAAAND, it's the 3 year anniversary of the day that i learned how to snap my fingers. Today is pretty monumental.
The past few days have been pretty eventful. I managed to piss off a lot of people. One of which being my best friend's Aunt. Josh and his family are pretty much my second family. I've been to all their family functions the past 2 years. (except easter, i was in Rochester). She was being VERY racist, and i told her that she was. Not all muslim's are terrorists. They sure as hell aren't 'rag heads' either. They wear Turbans. But i'd still get mad if she said 'Turban Head".
So, what does she do? She calls me a fat B****.
That's a HUGE pet peeve of mine. when people swear, but censor themselves by usuing symbols. So i replied with 'What, you can't spell it out? Are you too good to spell it out?"
Then....She calls me the c word. Right away. That's what she comes and says. This woman is 50 years old. No 50 year old woman with 3 kids and a grandson says something like that.
So then her daughter comes in. Great. Now, her daughter and i have not been getting along since last July. Basically, she was supposed to come up for Josh's graduation party, but chose to go get drunk with her boyfriend instead. Which is a recurring pattern. She always does this. Josh was upset, so i called her. She got really mad, she called me a lot of names, whatever. I don't care.
So Halloween comes around and she is gonna be at Josh's. She starts making threats that she's gonna kick my ass or whatever. I don't want that to happen. I'm not gonna fight back. And most importantly, it would upset Josh and his family if we got into it. She's texting me saying that i need to watch myself or she'll do this this and this.
I got there, she was nice. She was kissing my ass. Alright, that's fine. Then she starts telling me how much she loves me and all that shit. She had me do her hair and makeup all this. She thought we were all good and whatever. I didn't have a problem with her. I didn't hate her, and i didn't like her either. I was indifferent to her. I wasn't gonna be rude.
Ok, so she sees that i told her mom she was being racist and she comes in and starts calling me names and telling me that Josh's family (sister's, brothers and parents) hate me. They only let me hang out with them because they feel sorry for me. I was upset over this. I shed a few tears. I knew it wasn't true.
I never called her a name. Not once. She had called me fat, the only insult i said was that she isn't one to talk. She isn't.
Then, Josh's sisters find out. That's when shit hits the fan. They all come in and start defending me, you know, the one who isn't family. The one she says hates me.
Well, now, her brother wants to kick my ass. I've met the kid once. And all i know about him is that he's the biggest homophobe i've ever met. He wants to kick my ass for telling his mom she's racist. Wow.
I'm not entirely too worried about it. The worst that will happen is i'll get punched in the face or i'll get called the C word again. It's not the first time i've been hit, or the first time i've been called that. It's not gonna be the last.
If i'm at a family get together and they are there, i will go about my day. I will not start anything. I wont be rude. I will treat them as i would treat a stranger. I respect Josh's family too much to start anything with them.
She accused me of thinking that i was better than them because they use the C word and chose to solve things with fisticuffs. I was 100% honest, i told her that i do think i am better than her because i'm inteligent and i can use my intelligence to insult her without immediately pulling out that word.
She starts telling me how she has always hated me and only was nice to me because of Josh. That's mature. And fake. I never said i liked her, i never said i hated her. I didn't care. But, at least i wasn't fake.
I make a lot of people mad. This isn't a new thing. I always have , and i probably always will because i can't keep my mouth shut.
I do feel guilty though, because Josh and his cousin are best friends and now they're arguing because of this. I don't like when my actions harm other people.
It is really nice to know that i have people who will stand up for me. They aren't doing the fighting for me, but they are telling her that she was wrong.
So, today was my first day of therapy. I cried a little. Not as much as i wanted to. Only a tear. I feel that a normal person would have been crying a lot when i told Dr. Sullivan the things i told her. Some of it she was pretty astounded by.
On my way to therapy, mom suddenly stopped at Daycare. Her and Greta had made a secret plan. The kids made me a card. I was pretty close to crying, but i felt like i couldn't because of the kids. Cameron is talking a little now. It's so weird because i'm used to him grunting and moaning. Eben was shy, just like always. I may go see them tomorrow. Victoria can walk. It's so crazy! When i first met her she couldn't even roll over. Now she's walking and eating solid food! And saying words like "uh oh". I sure miss those guys. I can't wait for summer. I'll be going to see them a lot.
I was gonna make Tacos for dinner tonight, but plans changed and now i'm making them tomorrow. I'm ok with that.
That's what's going on. Now i'm off to take a pain killer and watch a movie. Tomorrow i'm gonna post something about the dogs, i think. I've been meaning to but i haven't gotten around to it.
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