I had a mini panic attack at dinner because i wasn't hungry enough to eat my food. So i felt awful. Amber talked me through it. I'm very overwhelmed.
Last night i went into bed at around 10:30, then i didn't end up falling asleep till about 2. And when i was alseep, it wasn't good sleep. I had a nightmare last night... One of those really vivid ones where you can feel the pain that's being inflicted on you, you can smell everything and it's just really upsetting.
Then i woke up, i went to the bathroom,got really frustrated that i feel so angry. So i laid back on my bed and hit my head really hard on the metal...i have a goose egg. Then i fed Cullen and stepped outside to smoke. I was expecting a nice day. I was wrong. I was barefoot.
WHY!? i didn't pack for snow. I packed for spring.
So then i got mad and littered. I threw a plastic bag on the ground... i was in my 'screw you mother nature' mode.
Then i felt bad and picked it up.
Usually i'd be all happy and use this as a photo opportunity. But, today i'm not in the mood.
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